WILL BE BACK!!!

The rain has poured away
And the rainbow waving good-bye
Those peacocks seems like waited 
Swinging in teem!

The cold wind blows like taking me away
And those rain drops irritates my hearing
Why this quirky thoughts
As never before?
I was the one born for nature
Loving blue and green!

I always hankered to keep smile
But what was that,stealing my smile?
The fear or tear?

Nothing else stood for me now
Everything has gone in their way
But i'm still dawdling
And bickering to myself for nothing.


Caught in a feeling that everything moving far
And i ran before barmly in vain.
Life circles again in that path
And playing moon with me,
Poking my emotion but still i'm before! 


Just be in touch and see,
How i fights with those eyes
piercing my thoughts,
How i came over those words
blaming my doings
And how i bring myself back
to love and to be loved!
I will be back!!

FORGIVE ME!

Who tapped my shoulder in my hard times,
And who runs to me for a hug in distress
Promising to be with me all the life,
Is not found anywhere now
Besides in my hidden heart.

  But that love in me
  Doesn't fade a bit
  But it flourished,
  Only flourished even in the hatred.

No,i'm trustworthy!
How can i hate something
Which i loves the most
Even it hurts me?
More and more,i will love,
That's only i can do.
Forgive me...

  I enjoys the pain you gave,
  It's feeling rare,
 A pleasure in pain!

  I enjoys the loneliness you gave:
  I am feeding that with your memories.
  I enjoys in each drop of my tears
  Because it teaches me to love more. 

Do forgive me
For loving you this much
For loving you more than you do
Do forgive me...!

  (sugary!!!)

SAW A GIRL

I SAW A GIRL STANDING ON THE BRIDGE
WITH HER EYES FAR AWAY ON THE LIGHTS,
I SAW A GIRL WEEPING ALONE
AND HER TEARS FLOWING ALONG THE SEA,
BUT NO ONE NOTICED.

I SAW A GIRL LAUGHING LOUDLY
PRETENDING TO BE HAPPY
AND SCREAMING INSIDE.
I SAW A GIRL KEEPING HER LOVE
FOR NO ONE BUT FOR A FLOWER,
WHICH SHE OFTEN KISSES WITH HER TEARS.

I SAW A GIRL TRYING TO HATE HERSELF
FOR NOT FORGETTING HER LOVE.
SAW A GIRL AWAITING FOR NOTHING
LIKE A LOVER BUT FOR LOVE AND CARE!

POOR GIRL!KNOWING NOTHING ABOUT THE WORLD;
ABOUT THIS CRAZY RIDICULOUS WORLD
WHERE THERE IS NOTHING LIKE LOVE AND CARE...

AGAIN!

FAR FROM THE WOODS,
AGAIN CAME THAT WHISPERING AIR
REMINDED ME THE PAST
AND MADE ME CRY.


FAR FROM THE SKY 
AGAIN CAME THAT RAIN
TO CRY WITH ME.

FAR FROM THE MOUNTAINS
AGAIN CAME THAT WIND
WIPING MY TEARS.


FAR FROM THE CLOUDS
AGAIN ROARED THAT THUNDER
CONSOLING ME.


FAR FROM THE EARTH
AGAIN FELT THAT WARMTH
HOLDING ME CLOSE.


BUT I WAS SCREAMING
SAYING TO LEAVE ME ON MY OWN.
I LEFT ALL BEHIND
FOR WHAT I LOVED
AND WHAT NEVER LOVED ME!


SOME CAME WITH MEMORIES
WHICH MADE ME CRY.
SOME WISHED TO BE WITH ME
FOR NOTHING OF THEIR OWN
BUT ONLY FOR ME.

SOME WIPED MY TEARS
CRIED WITH ME
AND TRIED TO CONSOLE.
BUT I LEFT THEM ALL BEHIND.


THOUGH SOME GAVE ME THEIR LIFE,
I LEFT THEM ALL BEHIND,
FOR SOMETHING WHICH NEVER 'LEFT'!

AGAIN ITS' ME 
MAKING MYSELF ALONE AND HURTED
BREAKING MY OWN HEART,
IN PAIN, BUT WITH A SMILE
AGAIN YOURS' ...

13-12-2010
12.30 AM

PIRIYAATHA NIN SOUHRITHAM

ON MA DEAR FRIEND

Ente ormayil marayatha madhuramayi,
Ente chiriyil vidaratha mugulamayi,
Ente hridayathile cheru madhuvumayi,
Ennumenikkorkkuvaan ennumenikai
nee thanna snehathin nombaramai,
kaalam maraykata sathyamai,
nin souhridam...ennumen kude!

KISKE SUNU?

Dil ke raahom mem
Wo hume chalne nahin diya
Duniya ke vaasthe chalkar
Hume sukoon bhi na mila
Dil ke raaste jaate to
Hume humare zindagi mil jaate
phir bhi hum na gaya!
Kiske sunu hum
Is dil ke ya ye duniya ke?

CHALAAK

Na jaane ye dil kya chahta hai
dil to bahut chalaak hai,
humse kuch khulkar na kehte!

Logom ke beech rahe to,
Akele rehne ko kehta hai.
Jab akele hote to,
kisiki raah dektha hai.


Yeh dil bahut chalaak hai
Humse kuch bhi khulkar na kehte!

GALAT?

Duniya sirf hasthe mooh
           ko ache maante hai,
Dil ke thadap,aansu bane to
          kamsor naam se pukarte hai...
Unke aankom se hume dekhe to,
Hum gunegaar dikhte hai...
Duniya ko yaad nahin
Wo bhi ro-rokar pade dhe kabhi...
Galat sirf hum hai
kyunki,
Dil ke baat mooh par aayi...

DOOND RAHE HO..?

 DEDICATING FOR MA FRND

Waqt le chaltha hai
Kayi gunh humse 
Wo masoomiyath,  chehre se aur dil se bhi
phir bhi kyun kisimein dekha ae sab?
Yaad hai hume woh 
bole chehre,gusse bare luphse
bachpan ke saare harkhatein...
PHIR AANKOM MEM BASI AUR KUCH
Jaanoge kya?
Pyar ke intezaar!
pehle to hume ajeeb laga
Phir hume sochne diya ki
Pyar kya cheez hai...
Haar gayi hum.
ye sirf pyar karnewaale mehsoos karthe...
jawaab keh nahi jaate na..?
phir hum khudh doondne laga
Apne pyaar keliye...
ab ehsaas hai uska thadap ka...
Ab bhi wo masoomiyath ke peeche
Chupa hai Intezaar!

KHAAS...

Sabhi ek phool jaise hai
Hume kisi 'phool' se bahut  pyar hai
Phir bhi sabse bhi karthi hai pyar
Par wo phool humareliye khaas hai...
Kyunki wo humare 'pyar' hai

sabko phool se pyar hai
alag sirf phoolome hai
jaise ki humare pasanth tumse alag!


Duniya mem har kisiko kisise pyar hai
aur wo unkeliye khaas hai...
Jaise hum unka hai...


Aakhir tujhe na mila tere 'khaas' aaj tak
Kyunki khaas tu hai kisike
aur tere pyar tere intezaar mem...

PAAGAL NAHI DEEWAANA HAI

***
kabhi kabhi dil toot jaata hai
kya tum ye samjogi kabhi bhi?
na jaane mein in yaadom mem dhoobe rahe,
kya tume iski ehsaas hai?

*****
jaan gayi hai ki,
zindagi mem sapna kuch nahin
iski sachayi hi hai sab kuch
phir bhi mein kyun aisa,
sapne ke peeche bhagte...?

*******
yeh jo dil hai,
jo hum sambhalkar raki
kabhi hume hi ise rokh na paate
rukhavatt hai har pal is zindagi mem
khabhar nahin hai kisiko,is dil ki!


*********
laphom se jo hum kehna jaa rahe hai
woh toh koi bi nahi samjoge
kyunki ye duniya aisi hai

aankein nahi khulte
 koi parde ke peeche gaye
 kaale ko saphedh maan gayi
 phir use chahne laga
 aaj kisi chaal me bazi
 himmat haarkar,
 aaj bi parde ke peeche


***********
zara dekho yaar,
kitne aankein humse padi hai
jaise bhi wo dekhe,
hum bhoore hai
koi na jaante ye sachaayi ko
na..kisiko usme diljasp nahin hai.
phir kyun doondu ye sab kuch,hena?
    


SOCHA KYA AAPNE?
KI HUM PAAGAL HAI?
NAHIN...
HUM PAAGAL THODI NA HAI
HUM DEEWAANE HAI...
SIRF...

MAZAA HAI MAZAA

Palatkar dekho is zindagi mem
Tujhe sirf pyaar hi pyaar nazar aayega
Apne aapko dekho isi waqt
Aur kaho..Tumne kya kho diya?

 Hum paa liya sab kuch
 Poora kiya sab kuch
 Par na jaane kab kho diye apne pyaar?
 Pyaar!
  
 Kal tak tujhe sirf ye pyaar tha
 sahaara bankar
 Abhi tum wo kho diya?
 abhi kya ginega tujme?
 Abhi aise kya bhakhi reh gaya?


Hum pyaar kho diya
Phir paaya ye 'akhelapan'!
Aur isme mein dhoond rahi hoon
Apne pyaar...
Woh bi ek mazaa hai,
Zindagi ke tarah!

11.00pm
4/9/2010

AAJ MEIN EK BIKHAARI...

Pyaar banaliya mujhe ek bhikaari
jo bhi mere dhe,sirf mere
wo to 'woh' legaya!

Mere dil ko haraakar 
pehle mere dil le gaya
phir mere khosh le gaya 


Ab ye aankein usko doonthi hai
aur ye kaan uske aawaaz!
Jise bhi dekhe wo dikhte hai
jiske bi sune,sirf
uska aawaaz!


Aaj mein ek bhikari
na mere paas mere dil hai
na pyaar
na mujme 'mein'!


11.10pm
4/9/2010

KIS MOD PAR LE AAYI TUM MUJHE

Na jaane ye dil kaise sambhalenge,
Jab ye sach hogi to!
Na jaane kya maangu rabh se
dil na tootne ko ya,
dil sambhalne ko!
Ye kis mod par le aayi tum mujhe?

Kahaan khushi doondu mein
Apne khushi mem,ya
apne ki khushi mem?
Na jaane kis mod par le aayi tum mujhe!


Na jaane kal kya hoga
Dhoor bhagegi humare koi,
waapas aayenge apne kisi ke saath!
Kya maangu mein rabh se
Ye kis mod par le aayi tum mujhe?


11.55 PM
13/10/2010

DIL

Dil ke baat,
likhkar nahin samja sakthe
kehkar bhi na ho sakthe
Dekhkar bhi dikhayi na dethe
woh baat sirf  ek dil hi pehchaanlenge...


Kabhi dil haar jaate hai
Is ehsaas ke saamne
Bhool na karna yaar,
Kisi ki dil padne mem
Kyunki,kabhi wo zindagi hogi
Kisi ki...

GROW OLD ALONG WITH ME

Grandpa of ninety years
sitting out the house
gazing at the stars,
he went to his past
He murmured,

"Grow old along with me 
The best is yet to be"

The lightening glow of God
Gifted by the Lord
that face of a child
It looked like for a while.

Glimpsing at the life
The life is wide and vast
The life is love to God
The life is to prove it on.

In childhood,he thought that,
it was the worthiest time
Playing with friends,
around the oasis!
Thought it was the best,
The sweetest time of life
Was it the sweetest?
Now the wisely doubts


As he grew up he thought,
The school time was the best,
There was sharing of hearts
He loved and was loved.
Was it the best of life?


As he got a job
He thought it was the best
As he could earn
And save for future
was it the best of life?


As he got married he thought
it was the best of life
As he had partner forever
Was it the best of life?

Playing with his own kids,
He thought it was the loviest
Was it the loviest?


As his parents passed away
He thought that time was the worst
Was that the worst time?

As the kids grew up 
And stood themselves in the world
he thought he could relax
and its the happiest time
was it the happiest life?

As he became older
Ninety years old
He knew the world better
he knew the hearts better
he knew the real life better
Everything better
loving,loving and loving
his entire life.


Yes!"Grow old along with me
the best is yet to be"
His murmuring was heard
He went inside and slept!

  (ma 1st poem in English in 2005)

ORU ORMAYILOODE(MALAYALAM)

Nizhalugalkappuram enthino-
vendiyulayunnu kadhalayentho...
swaramamamrithonnothunna pole
entho manassil thingi nirayunnu.
Ormathan poocheppil vilangunna
pushpangaloronumaayen
hridayathil ninnum medenjeduthu;
En swapnangaloronumayunarnu vannuu.
enthinennariyilla,enthinayennu-
mariyilla,swapnangalude kaliyayi 
nizhalinte veenagal meetiya neram.


Thennalinithalil sandhyapushpamuna-
runna gandhamayi njanathaaswathichu.
jwelikunna vilakkinte munnil nja-
nente ormathan vaathil thurannu vachuu.


vilakkinte jwalayil prarthanamukharamayi 
kaikoopi,manjinte hridyamam sheethathil,
kshetrapadikkal nilkunnayenne kanduu.
oraalinte thanalil njanorale
ninachirikunnuvennu njan kandarinjuu.
  
"aaranennariyilla,aarayiriku-
mennumariyilla,enthino vendi 
njanavane kathirunnu."




oru navamidinamayannu njan swa-
pnangalude lohamayi theerna neram
mazhayude theril vannu nilkunna-
vane kandu njan verute,
kanathe kandu njan verute!
innum njan kaathiripoo aa dinathinayi.
enthinrnnariyilla,enthinayennu-
mariyilla enthino vendi njan kathiripoo...


(ma first malayalam poem written n 2005)
 

WAQT AUR MAJBOORIYAAN

TUMHE KISKA INTEZAR HAI
WAQT KA?
JO TUMHE KEHNA HAI,
KEHDO TAB HI
KAYI DER NA HO JAAYE...


MAJBOORIYAAN HUM PAR NA AATE
WO HUM LE AATE HAI
WOH BAANDKAR AAYE TO
ZINDAGI HUMSE NAHIN
HUM ZINDAGI SE JEET LENGE...

KAHO! ABHI HI, JO TUMHE KEHNA HAI
WAQT DHOOR BAGH RAHE HAI,
JALDI KARO....WO BAAGH RAHI HAI!

APNA YA PARAAYA?

KISIKO APNA BANANE SE APNA NAHIN HOTA
KOI APNE HOKAR BI APNE JAISE NAHI HOTA
KABHI APNE BI SAMAJ NA PAATE 
APNOM KE DIL KE DARD
AISE 'APNE' HOTE TO KYUN?
KABHI ISKA EHSAAS NA DILAYE TO 
APNE HI KON,HUMARE APNE?
 

SACH YA SAPNA

SAPNE SIRF SAPNE BANAKAR RAHE TOH
ZINDAGI ME KYA MAZA?
JAB WO SAPNE SACH HUYE TO
HOGI ISKI SAHI MAZA.... 

WO JO WAQT HAI
IN DONOM KE BEECH
KYA HAI TABKI MAZA?
SAPNE DEKHNE MEM
HAAZIL KARNE MEM SE BHI
ACHE TAB HOGE KYA?